If I believe that God is going to take care of me, I would not be so concerned about getting things done.

About 20 years ago I was near my emotional, physical and spiritual end.  I could not take much more, I thought.  I was preparing to move my family from Arkansas to Colorado.  I was on staff with a mission organization – Cru, therefore I needed to raise the money to move us.  “D Day” was coming.  The house was sold, our new used car just got a new transmission ($$), a few days before that I drove into our garage door while backing out (now I will need to buy a new garage door) and the money needed for the move had not come in.  The perfect storm.  I had worked hard but seen very little results.

I remember well where I was standing when God spoke to me.  “What if this did not depend on you, what would you do?”  That day I had a petty quick answer, “I would relax, enjoy the process and do what I can”.  That was profound for me and I accepted the reality that “it did not depend on me”.

For some reason, I want to live by the principle that for every action there is a specific result.  If I work hard, I will make more money, get promoted, accomplish a goal.  Oh, that happens and hard work does pay off but it is not a formula, exact science.

Dependance on God

God was showing me that my dependency is on Him.  Work hard and leave the results to Him.  That can be scary and painful when results are not what you want.  I wish I could say, “I got this one”.  I don’t!

I’m on the journey and need the reminder that my dependence and trust is focused on God, then relax, work hard and have fun.  This becomes possible when I begin to understand and relate to my Father God as One who loves me deeply, does not save me from all trouble, is always with me (even when I don’t feel like it), only wants good for me, and is preparing an incredibly awesome future!